Wednesday, May 5, 2010

My Impossible Future

As a child, what was your answer to the question, "what do you want to be when you grow up?"  My answer was always, very matter-of-factly, "A teacher!! and.... a MOMMY!!"  How about now?  Even as adults we have dreams and goals that we desire to accomplish when we think about our future.

Well, the latest challenge at AAM is to scrap about our "impossible future".  I chose to come at the challenge by journaling a layout about my desire to be married and be a mommy.  My dream hasn't come true.... yet.

Supplies:  Paper:  Scenic Route (ledger), Fancy Pants Designs, Chipboard, letter stickers, stickers: Cosmo Cricket, Flower, bling: Bo Bunny Press, brads: American Crafts, Making Memories, Tool: Silhouette SD

This layout was very therapeutic for me to create because while I'm happy with my life as it is, at the moment, I still grieve not being at the place I had always dreamt of being at.  Through out high school, my friends and I mapped out our amazing plans together.  We would all be married by the time we were 21.  We'd all have, at least, 2 children by the time our 10 year reunion would come around and either have amazing careers in some type of design capacity or be stay at home moms.  Gosh.  Pretty awesome, right?  Well, out of my circle of friends, I'm the only one who didn't live up to our dreams.  (Don't worry... I don't look at it like that anymore!!!)  At first, when I was in my mid-twenties, I would always be sad when my friends would share about their lives and such.  

Fast forward to today... I'm happy.  I'm content.  I have a wonderful job that allows me to part time "mommy" to almost 150 children.  I get to send them home when they are sick and crabby.. hehe... So there are some perks to not being a mommy.  And not being married... I get to do what I want, when I want and how I want it.  I don't have to share the bed, the entire closet is mine and I don't have to ask if I can get more scrappy supplies.  *big cheesy smile*

But there is still that spot in my heart that is ready for a mate someday... and maybe a child or two. :)

Come along and participate with us at AAM!  



Melissa said...

Melissa, this is completely wonderful. I love the pic, and the white space...awesome stuff.

Ilene said...

Gorgeous, gorgeous LO - love how the colors work together. And love the pic. And I hope all your dreams come true someday soon, and you get your Happily Ever After. I think as long as you keep on dreaming and don't give up, sooner or later you can get to anywhere you want to.

Terry Oulboub said...

Melissa, great LO - the photo with the just the eyes is that mischievous look - like your story said, hey, maybe my dream hasn't come true, but it will. :-) Love the little extra bits of color - very good focal point.