Thursday, November 18, 2010

No More Masks

There was a time in my life - say 15+ years ago - when I wanted people to like me so badly I'd wear a mask.  The mask would be anything they'd want it to be.  If I needed to be preppy, a hick, grunge or gangster I could do it.  If I found I didn't like the group I was part of or got bored with them, I'd put on a different mask.  It was the way I operated.  I like the term "chameleon" too.  I could blend in with the best of them.

I love it that I've reached a point in my life where I get a kick out of that girl I once was.  It use to make me sad and now I just giggle.  Because isn't that what most teens do?  As they try to figure out who they are, they try out different things and feel lost the whole time.  That is, until they find it. Which for me still didn't come until about 7 or 8 years ago.

The following layout was created with the November Acceptance kit at SFTIO.  I loved this kit and the right colors, beautiful embellishments and gorgeous papers.  It's absolutely luxurious and perfect to use for your layouts dealing with acceptance.

I loved that wooden flower from Harmonie.  I knew I wanted to use it in a different way before I just adhered it to the page so I thought, "I wonder if I could use it as a stamp?!"  And it worked!  I almost didn't use it on the layout but it added the perfect texture and balance to the finished page.  I also had to do some cutting to the flowers.  And hello.  How gorgeous are those Prima flowers???

This layout has a lot of symbolism but mostly dealing with "blooming".  As I've accepted who I am and now needing to be a chameleon, I've really felt like I've bloomed in my personality.  While I still desire to win people over and seek their affirmation, it's not always in an unhealthy way.  It's just the way I feel loved.  In the meantime, I will continue to get a good laugh and think fondly on my silly teenage years.



Tracy said...

I think you are right, it is about finding who you are.
But isn't that life, changing and growing, to be the best You, you can be.
Love your layout, personal and fun.

Renay said...

Beautiful layout. I can relate to the mask wearing. I am so happy that you have accepted yourself and "bloomed." It's amazing how great it feels!

Tammy said...

Very cool layout! I've been thinking about doing something similar about my horrid high school days and my quest to just be me - not a follower and not a leader - and how that left me friendless in my school (thank goodness I had close friends at other schools). Thanks for the inspiration. :)