Can it be?

Another week has flown by? I feel they are going by faster and faster. This year had already gone by at lightening speed.  While there are certain times of the year I do look forward to, I'm fearing that they will zoom by way too fast as well.  Time to savor every minute!

Do you ever stop and ponder your younger years? Like, what if you had done some things differently? I know that be a dangerous place to go sometimes.  But I think it can also be a wonderful way to come to a realization that blessings can abound in other ways too.  For me, I often wonder what life would have been like if I had kept up with sports. I played soccer and volleyball in my younger years and on into middle school but something happened when I hit 8th grade.  My family had just moved to a new place. While I welcomed the change and loved my new school, I had some insecurities. So I didn't try out.

Even in high school I had thoughts about "why am I not trying out for my favorite sports??"  I was good at both.  I played full back in soccer and rocked it out. I had what was dubbed the "killer serve" in volleyball. But there was just that stupid voice in my head telling me I wasn't good enough. That voice still resides in my head but it's much quieter then it once was.  I attribute that to the fact I've grown in my faith and relationship with the Lord. I'm not cocky or arrogant but there is a certain confidence that comes with knowing my true identity and what I'm being called to do in life. My calling seems to change sometimes and I still feel the need to be affirmed by people in whatever roll I'm taking on but when you remove all of that need, I know where my confidence lies.  Not in me or what I can do.  Not in my own strength.  But it lies in what God can do through me and HIS strength.

OK.  Done with the mini sermon.  How about a layout?

Most supplies are from the April Resilience Kit from SFTIO.
Supplies: Paper, Cardstock, Tags, Brads, Fabric, Alphabet, Frame, Rub-ons: American Crafts, Bling: Prima Marketing, Tool: Border Punch: Martha Stewart Crafts 

The emotion this month at SFTIO is Resilience. I like to relate the word Strong with Resilience.  I think it takes a lot of strength to exhibit resilience.  Here is my journaling for this layout:

What if I had stuck with volleyball and soccer in high school? Would I be more resilient to what people think of me? Would I be in better shape now and more confident? Why didn't I continue trying out? I was scared of rejection. I was scared of what people would think about me at a new school. "Oh she thinks she is good?" That was my fear. A stupid fear! I'm so glad I'm no longer like that. At least not completely. I still assume. I still get hurt. But I can bounce back much easier and am not afraid to try again. Or try NEW things for that matter. The butterflies still show up and the pesky thoughts of not being good enough make their appearance but I'm not afraid to admit those feelings. And I'm thankful for awesome people in my life, like Kaari, who remind me I can do it and that God has gifted me so uniquely. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

This whole idea of confidence and resilience can certainly be applied to this scrapbooking industry.  Especially when trying out for design teams.  Sometimes I can come out of it cheering and other times I'm limping from being beaten and bruised.  It's a tough ballgame to play.  There are times I want to throw in the towel because I feel the sting of rejection.  I take it personal because it's my personal artwork that is being rejected.

Those feelings, while still there, subside rather quickly when I remind myself the true reason for being part of this industry.  I love to design. I love to create and I love sharing my life with others.  Whatever team or avenue that may be, I am thankful for all the opportunities I've been given and know that the teams I get to be a part of are the ones that I'm suppose to be on.  And that makes me so happy.

So... whether it's sports in middle school and high school or being on a design team, we all have times in our life when our resilience is tested!  How do you deal with rejection and would you consider yourself to be resilient? I'd love to hear about it!


P.S.  Don't forget about the Design Team Call happening over at SFTIO.  You can get more details by clicking here.

P.P.S. Thank you all for the wonderful comments about my scrap/bedroom! I'm so glad several of you appreciated the "realness" of my room. Ha! I viewed the post a couple of times and got a bit embarrassed because I was comparing myself again. Ugh. Need to stop doing that! Don't compare yourself! It's horrible!!!