Monday, November 7, 2011

Beauty and the Online Crop

It's only been the past three or four years that I've taken a conscientious thought to connecting my inner beauty with the outer beauty. I've had self-esteem issues forever when it comes to the outside. I've struggled with weight issues every since I was a kid. I've lost and gained and lost and gained. Been teased, taunted and accepted. I've been discriminated, insulted and encouraged. Notice that the negative words are more than the positive ones. That's because, as we all know, the negative sticks with us much more than the positive. You can hear 20 positive things about yourself but that ONE negative thing will put a huge bug in your head and taunt you. It's kind of silly... and annoying. Actually it's very irritating.

So, as hard as it is, I've been trying to connect the two. I know I've got issues. Can irritate people. Have a hard time with commitments. Am a scatter brain. Sensitive at times. Controlling. But I also know that people like me. My friends think I'm beautiful. Jesus thinks I'm beautiful. My closest friends have all kinds of wonderful things to affirm me with. So now it's just a matter of connecting the two. I know I can try harder to be healthy. I know instead of coming home and sitting at the computer, I could be walking or working out instead. I know when I reach for that soda, I could be getting water. There are lots of things I could be doing better. It's hard work! But for now, I'm going to keep encouraging myself to work on the outside and also accept that I'm beautiful on the outside as well as on the inside.

All supplies are from the November kit - Connection - from Scrapbooking from the Inside Out. Products on this layout are from Jillibean Soup, American Crafts, Sassafras, Prima and Maya Road. Love the mix of  colors and the homespun feel.

Also at SFTIO, we are having an Online Crop! Click on the image below.

Note: If you are not registered on our forum, it does require validating the registration but we're making sure to get those done quickly. :) 


Pamela said...

Wonderful layout!!! I love it! Do you have to get/have the kit to participate in the crop? I still love the whole idea of this kit club!!! :)

Angi @ CokiePop said...

I can sooo relate to this post. It's so uplifting! Love the beautiful photo that you used. Fabulous page. :)

Sandie said...

This is wonderful! I used to get this kit some time ago. Still is my favourite kit of all. I stopped getting kits back then, because they took so long to get to me, and two even went missing. The owner of this kit club however, resent me one. VERY impressive. Since that day, when anyone asks me if I have a recommendation, I say THIS kit.

Could really relate to your post. Awesome!

Connie said...

I related with your post on so many levels~your work is beautiful and so are you. Would love to try my hand at this type of scrapbooking~but writing is not my strong point:( infact I struggle at it (don't tell Dora):):)

Danielle said...

This page is fantastic!! I love your honest journaling. I think we all struggle with these feelings at some point in our lives.

Sylvia said...

so beautiful, Melissa! Great LO!