The Truth

During my youth I lived with a lie. In fact, even into adulthood, it's a lie that I have battled. We all have those lies that seep into our brains. The little childhood taunts that have somehow stuck with us. Thankfully, as we get older, we do learn that those lies are, indeed, straight up lies. Then, it becomes this awesome path of growth as we dive into what is the TRUTH.  Who are we... really? So if that little, mean voice in my head is a lie... then what is the truth?

A lie that has stuck with me, like a nagging wife, is that I'm not good enough. There is always someone better and that is why I am overlooked. Because I am overlooked, you know.

Uh no.

That is a lie. However, it's a pretty valid issue for me to work through and share because it has invaded my thoughts for years. It still affects me when I'm not chosen for something or recognized for something. I'm such a people pleaser. My love language is words of affirmation. I need to hear that I'm doing a good job. Gifts, people doing things for me or a hug don't do it for me. I need to HEAR it! So when I don't, my knee-jerk reaction is to wonder what I did wrong. How did I mess up? Why am I not noticed?

I'm learning that I don't need to hear it all the time. When I don't, I shouldn't be freaking out and thinking there is something wrong with the world. People can't read my mind. *gasp* How would anyone, who doesn't know me, understand that I need to hear words? And even if they know me, why should they constantly have to feed into this silly lie that I've set myself up for.

Thank goodness for the TRUTH!

Created using the June kit TRUTH from Scrapbooking from the Inside Out.

The TRUTH is that I'm not overlooked. I'm not ignored. God knows me, loves me, created me and "doesn't make mistakes".  I know. Totally cliche statement but it's true. I don't think God has said to any of us, "Oh crap.. why did I make you again???"  Nope. He has made everything beautiful in its time and I need to remind myself that His love is so real and amazing that I can't help but understand that I am SO valued by Him. Best feeling ever.

It felt good to create this layout because this lie is one that, while the voice might get quieter, it will never go away. I love having this to look at and read to remind myself of the TRUTH.

Do you battle a lie? What's the truth?

P.S. 20 more days until Chicago. :)