Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Let It Go

The other day a woman yelled at me on the bus.

Apparently there was absolutely no grace in her life.

Allow me to explain. Have you ever ridden a city bus before? Sometimes you get this amazing driver to seems to anticipate each stop with care and accelerates with the knowledge that they have precious cargo. Other drivers seem to have a lead foot and others... well... I wonder how they passed the test!  Such was the kind of driver we had that day. Unfortunately for me and this lady, when the driver decided to take off, I lost my balance. In my attempt to keep from falling over into the aisle, I grabbed onto one of the poles to pull myself up. In doing so, I had to take a step and, without realizing what I was doing because I was trying not to die, I was pushing up against the bag that belonged to the lady, up against her and squishing her a bit.

Oops.

My bad. I didn't mean to. So the next thing I hear is, in a very rude voice, "Excuse YOU!"

Ugh.

I felt embarrassed for almost falling over. I hurt from being jostled and I felt bad for shoving into the lady. Most others would have sympathy. This lady did not. I apologized sincerely.  Her response? "That's all you have to say?"

It was then that I knew it would be a good idea to just keep moving to the back of the bus.

What do you mean... that's all I have to say??? What more did she want? It's not like I got on the bus, saw her face and made a bee line towards her to invade her personal space.

*sigh*

It's moments like these that I can see the big picture. Maybe she had a bad day and was taking it out on me. Maybe she legitimately did not think I was being sincere. Who knows! What I do know, is that it's hard for me to let these things go. I replay them over and over and over and over....

Created using the December kit RELEASE from Scrapbooking from the Inside Out.

I'm sure some of you can relate! Why is it... that we put ourselves through that? It doesn't help the situation at all.

I'd like to say that each time I go through something like this, it does get a little bit easier to let it go but...that is just something I'd like to say. But I do wish I could just let things go... especially something like that situation. It just seems so minor compared to everything else in life!


It was perfect to be able to journal this with some art therapy using the RELEASE kit from Scrapbooking from the Inside Out. Felt really good to let it all out! Really. Good.

Speaking of SFTIO... we have announced the new gals joining the design team! It's all very exciting. I always enjoy when a new term starts. Even though I will deeply miss the gals leaving, I love the new relationships that form between team members! We are a unique bunch. It happens when you are sharing your inner thoughts and emotions together. I love it! Make sure you click the link above and go congratulate the new team. 

What do you have a hard time letting go? 





2 comments:

Suzanna Lee said...

I do that too Melissa, live those moments over and over and then, only then to does THE perfect come back occur to me. When it's two days too late... I really like the visual of the smudged ink that looks like your worries being carried off on the wind. Fantastic!

Mary Jo Rhoda said...

I absolutely love this layout!
Gorgeous. And there is so much I have had to learn to "let go" for peace of mind.
otherwise it does just eat at you.
I have also learned that I am not responsible for how others think and feel as long as I have done all I can to be in the right.
There are just some people in the world who are bitter, unhappy, etc...But it's not healthy to take on their issues.
I just try to be the best person I can be :)